Seasons Of Love

A baby cries into the night
Unaware of its surroundings
It reaches out
Snatching winter
From its cold grey funeral
Bringing in spring slowly
Colors fly past him in blurs
His eyes adjust
Flowers bloom
New love does too
People dream
And winter is forgotten
Life awakens from hibernation
The baby adjust to the world
Summer begins
Temperatures rise
Fire works go off
Then they die
Baby explores all the firsts
Lovers quarrel and make up
Wish upon stars and dream for better days
Bills get tight
Yet they aren't giving up
Getting lost in the simple pleasure of summer
They don't see the leaves change
Their side of the bed get further away
Distance and as quickly as trees end up baren
So do souls
The baby has grown used to the cold
As autumn wizzes by
Snow flakes hit the ground
The lovers do not speak
As they descend six feet under into hibernations
There arguments rattle windows worse
Then trains and busses passing by
Life is going so much slower
You can almost hear funeral durges in the air
Love is on vacation
Only making guest appearances at holidays
A baby turns one
As winter slowly surrenders
Lovers cum out of hibernation
Bitterly look at all the growth around them
Realizing they are standing still
There hearts have been taken over by hate
They will not savor the milestones
The things they have endured side by side
Yet look at everything that has brought them to this season of loss
won't recognize this beauty
they wont spring forward
but fall back into winters grave
never to remember the light again.......

Time stopped

Like hands of a clock

Moving backwards

Time has stopped

No longer do we live for the moment

Savor it sweetly 

We rush it along

Cause we have too much to do

And no time

Time has gone missing like mailboxes

Ya you can find one

Yet they are gonna be attached to your pc or laptop

Usually belonging to a browser

Or attached to our damn cellphones

Cause when does anyone really have time to talk to anyone

We would rather text down a busy highway

And put everyone else's life in jeopardy

See we are on borrowed time

So we jack other people's time make it ours

Living in the moment is so much different then living reckless

We use our words as bullets

Damn near killing everyone in a 5 mile radius

And that is how we keep it real

By being dangerous and reckless

Yet time stoppped

Got overworked by instant gratification

See we just keep finding ways to make things quicker

And we wonder why 

No one wants to spend any time with us

It's cause time is dead

Something that is supposed to be endless

Has short fused

We simplify things

Taking the easy way out

To save some time

Yet time stopped

Sick of spending 24 hours

Rushing your kids to school

Then soccer practice 

Baking cupcakes for the school bake sale

Then going home and making dinner

Just to be told no one will be eating cause it took to long

Then we wonder why we have a nation of adhd babies

Who's attention span is haywire

No one can be controlled 

Since time stopped

Sick of working double time

No paid vacation and no sick time

We abuse time

Scream at it when a loved one dies

It wasn't their time

We hold onto people

We don't even spend time with

I know grandma was 90 but i loooooved her

pppppppppppplease

i know i didn't spend anytime with my boyfriend

But he shouldn't have cheated on me

We blame time like we blame God, the government and our parents

Putting our faults into one of the four categories 

Sometimes all of them 

Till our responsibility 

Ends up in a casket

Burried deep into the ground

We plan funerals everyday

For things we should have spent more time with

Our jobs

Our kids 

Our relationships

Money

Yet time stands still waiting to go back to time 

When we at least had time to breath

When things where slower

Yet like the hands of a clock 

You can't rewind time

And like a dead battery 

There is no reviving this isn't energizer 

This isn't a dress rehearsal and you can't redo life

So I guess we just need to make more time

More time to :

Live in the moment

Love

Breath

Appreciate the world around us

Before our time is up

Before the ticking stops

Before our heart stops

 Because I would rather live a life of fulfillment

Then be responsible for making time stop

Grind

 Never has real life mirrored paper
BLANK
I have no thoughts
Cause they all seem to be borrowed
BLANK 
Like my bank account
Been unemployed four months now
And I am still grinding
Small insignificant me
Never except hand outs
Always cost something
So even if all four tires are flat
I am still grinding 
Hitting pavement
And I am still going
Fly past ghosts in the night
Fly by old churches where i lost my faith
Fly by people who said who would be there for me
And I am BLANK
Yet my mind is so full of questions
Some days I feel like I am having existential debate
With the devil
And the only time I feel good
is when I live in these letters
They form words
Which form sentences
And since I have been sentenced to this life
I must be blessed
Cause I am still grinding
Pulling myself out of almost's
Almost homeless
Almost mental
Almost there for me
Almost visited me in the mental hospital
Almost figured out who my real family is
And the only time I feel at home
Is when I pick up a mic
And the only time I feel alive
Is when I write.....
So I can't give up

I wanna be in love

I  wanna be in love
Not Taylor Swift lyrics
kind of love
I wanna be in 3d love
Imax , big screen tv kind of love
No words can express this
Kind of love
Tears shed
Waiting to fill the other side of the bed
kind of love
I wanna be in love
Not Artificial candy hearts
Only on Valentines day kind of love
I want my socks to literally be knocked off
While I get actually swept off my feet
getting that kiss you know
the one that make you lift
just one leg slightly
I want to know what love is
I want to feel it in every fiber of my being
I want to grow old
Then decompose
and watch the flowers grow above our side  by side plot
kind of love
i want to birth a future of poets and lovers and dreamers
kind of love
i want to bring back motown , jazz and the blues kind of love
i want to that gut wrenching
sickening sweet kind of love
that gives you a cavity and makes you want to puke at the same time
i want to get dizzy floating on cloud nine
that i fall from the skies
and hit cupid on his head
and make him fall in love too
But first i want to fall in love with myself
before i even fall for you

Customized God

 I wonder if people make their own God
Kinda like build a bear
Cept instead build a God
Assemble pieces of the Bible
To make it fit for them
The new God
Will come with a lift kit
So he will always appear
To be levitating
Over your own shit
Can bail you out of jail
Will look at your problems
Ten times more important
Then all the meaningless
Stuff going on in the world
The new God won't watch the news
Yet will save you 10 percent on your car insurance
Get that dead beat husband to pay back child support
Find ways to talk the cop out of that speeding ticket
Cause you are a child of God fearfully and wonderfully made
So you wouldn't speed right
If you created a God
Placed up signs in protest
Didn't even ask his opinion
Promoted things he doesn't stand for
How would he feel ?
Knowing your endorsed his name
Make him the spokesperson
For hate
Place evil into the center
Of the epitomy of peace
I mean by now
You have thrown out the Bible
Lost Him in your own translation
Of who you needed God to be
The world will never know Him
Because we keep using it as an excuse
We pass out that name
Like school nurses diagnose adhd
Yet I know one thing
If we could customize God
He wouldn't have sent Jesus
To die on the cross for all these sins
We didn't commit
If we could customize God
We would be more powerful then Him
We would be God
Yet then we wouldn't need God
See we could try and customize Him
Yet it would be pointless

DNA Fragments

If it is true what the say about dna
I have half a crack addict
and the other half of me is made up of
A vietnam vet
With ptsd
An addiction
To be loved
With gypsy feet
I run from anything
To do with love
Yet I will read any book
To fix myself,not the enviroment
The inner hypochondria in me
(Thanks mom)
Tries to diagnose
While my dads side
would rather tough it out
gestures middle fingers to the world
cause we all know
those peace loving hippie days are over with
I am both childlike like my mother
Who never took responsibility
For any of short comings
Rough and rugged an old soul like my father
I am all their flaws bundled up
Into my own disaster
Yet even though I share dna
Every part of me tries to break away
To break the strand
To break the cycle
I'd rewrite the story
Yet you can't rewrite this crazy out of it
The similarities scare me
See mom and dad
Cut the ties when I was two
Sent me into cruel world
To fend for myself
A foster kid till I was 3
I don't know how I share these traits
Yet it is in me
I can't run from it
Disguise me
They say you share your dna
I think that is b.s.
I think one day
You wake up
Realizing you can do better
You wake up
Find that unique difference
In your genetic makeup
Maybe one day I won't notice
Their flaws
The way my face wrinkles
Like my mother
Maybe I won't isolate the world
Like my dad
Maybe I will open my mouth
Speak only to those
That motivate me to write
The outcast
The people born into families they don't even belong to
We can live in our own land of misfit toys
Yet we will be the misfit kids
Instead of being looked on because of our flaws
We will shine like the sun
And embrace our presence in the world....

on the floor

I may seem innocent
Yet tonight I want to be bad
Why make it to the bed
I want to bang on the floor
Screw planning
Candles and music
Rose petals and baths drawn
Fuck massages
All a waste of time
I want you to fuck me
Dirty and nasty
I want you to
Do me on the floor
Your wasting time
I am dripping wet
I need you to fuck me
No foreplay
No four course meal
I am in a hurry
I'll even  keep on the heels
I just need you inside me
Deep porno pounding
Thrust synchronized
To racing heart beats
Beat this pussy up
While you pull my hair
I dont care
I just need you
On the floor
Rug burns
Yet we still want more
Deeper ,harder, and faster
I don't want talking or love making
I want fucking on the floor
Can I get more
Bang me up against the door
Once more before you leave
Just fuck me
Like the world is gonna end
If you dont cum one more time
Lick , bite and suck one more time
Ride and grind inside
Till you feel my walls close in
Around your dick
Right before the toe curls
Screams and moans
Before I lick you clean
Then cuddle you right on the floor
That fleeting moment of romance
In the aftermath
Where you wrap your arms round me
Staring out the sky light
Wrapped up in eachothers nakedness