Customized God

 I wonder if people make their own God
Kinda like build a bear
Cept instead build a God
Assemble pieces of the Bible
To make it fit for them
The new God
Will come with a lift kit
So he will always appear
To be levitating
Over your own shit
Can bail you out of jail
Will look at your problems
Ten times more important
Then all the meaningless
Stuff going on in the world
The new God won't watch the news
Yet will save you 10 percent on your car insurance
Get that dead beat husband to pay back child support
Find ways to talk the cop out of that speeding ticket
Cause you are a child of God fearfully and wonderfully made
So you wouldn't speed right
If you created a God
Placed up signs in protest
Didn't even ask his opinion
Promoted things he doesn't stand for
How would he feel ?
Knowing your endorsed his name
Make him the spokesperson
For hate
Place evil into the center
Of the epitomy of peace
I mean by now
You have thrown out the Bible
Lost Him in your own translation
Of who you needed God to be
The world will never know Him
Because we keep using it as an excuse
We pass out that name
Like school nurses diagnose adhd
Yet I know one thing
If we could customize God
He wouldn't have sent Jesus
To die on the cross for all these sins
We didn't commit
If we could customize God
We would be more powerful then Him
We would be God
Yet then we wouldn't need God
See we could try and customize Him
Yet it would be pointless

DNA Fragments

If it is true what the say about dna
I have half a crack addict
and the other half of me is made up of
A vietnam vet
With ptsd
An addiction
To be loved
With gypsy feet
I run from anything
To do with love
Yet I will read any book
To fix myself,not the enviroment
The inner hypochondria in me
(Thanks mom)
Tries to diagnose
While my dads side
would rather tough it out
gestures middle fingers to the world
cause we all know
those peace loving hippie days are over with
I am both childlike like my mother
Who never took responsibility
For any of short comings
Rough and rugged an old soul like my father
I am all their flaws bundled up
Into my own disaster
Yet even though I share dna
Every part of me tries to break away
To break the strand
To break the cycle
I'd rewrite the story
Yet you can't rewrite this crazy out of it
The similarities scare me
See mom and dad
Cut the ties when I was two
Sent me into cruel world
To fend for myself
A foster kid till I was 3
I don't know how I share these traits
Yet it is in me
I can't run from it
Disguise me
They say you share your dna
I think that is b.s.
I think one day
You wake up
Realizing you can do better
You wake up
Find that unique difference
In your genetic makeup
Maybe one day I won't notice
Their flaws
The way my face wrinkles
Like my mother
Maybe I won't isolate the world
Like my dad
Maybe I will open my mouth
Speak only to those
That motivate me to write
The outcast
The people born into families they don't even belong to
We can live in our own land of misfit toys
Yet we will be the misfit kids
Instead of being looked on because of our flaws
We will shine like the sun
And embrace our presence in the world....

on the floor

I may seem innocent
Yet tonight I want to be bad
Why make it to the bed
I want to bang on the floor
Screw planning
Candles and music
Rose petals and baths drawn
Fuck massages
All a waste of time
I want you to fuck me
Dirty and nasty
I want you to
Do me on the floor
Your wasting time
I am dripping wet
I need you to fuck me
No foreplay
No four course meal
I am in a hurry
I'll even  keep on the heels
I just need you inside me
Deep porno pounding
Thrust synchronized
To racing heart beats
Beat this pussy up
While you pull my hair
I dont care
I just need you
On the floor
Rug burns
Yet we still want more
Deeper ,harder, and faster
I don't want talking or love making
I want fucking on the floor
Can I get more
Bang me up against the door
Once more before you leave
Just fuck me
Like the world is gonna end
If you dont cum one more time
Lick , bite and suck one more time
Ride and grind inside
Till you feel my walls close in
Around your dick
Right before the toe curls
Screams and moans
Before I lick you clean
Then cuddle you right on the floor
That fleeting moment of romance
In the aftermath
Where you wrap your arms round me
Staring out the sky light
Wrapped up in eachothers nakedness

I am

I am that annoying kid
Nobody understands
Loud outburst
Fits
Can't control my temper
I just want to punch somebody
A wall will do
I am the one that stands out loudly
Like won't he just go away
Won't she just vanish
I am the homeless man
Thrown off a bus for smelling funny
I am loud pop stars trying to make their
Outside look pretty
Yet there inside is ugly
I am hair weaves
I am spray on tan and silicone
I am the outcast
The strange looks
The whispers behind the back
I am silent cries in the night
Holding a razor blade
 To make it all stop
I am dank weed smoke
To chase ghosts away
I am creativity stifled by ignorant fucks
I am that freshman in highschool
The new person in town
I am everything right with the world
No second chances
Cause I can't buy a loan
On expired happiness
I am still holding onto that red balloon
Obliviously that my two feet aren't on the ground
I am fed up with the government
Yet I refuse to speak up
I am that mother in the welfare line you called a crack addict
When in reality I am homeless
I am humanity's funeral
I am killing my own kind
With every know hate crime known to mankind
Corporate Civil war
Silence the masses with toxic sin
So they can make us pray to their"god"
We can't even get peace of mind
Not even at christmas time
I am baby's dumped in dumpsters
Toilets and the side of the road
I am the cruel harshness of the world
Waking up knowing no one will ever give a  fuck
So why give a fuck about ourselves
I am lazy and self absorbed
Shy and disillusioned
I am hypocrisy
Golden rule thrown down the toilet
As we sit and watch everyone
Rob , steal and kill our little bit of heaven
I am suicide
Not screaming for help
Just can't take it anymore
Sick of shelling out money
To fund research for things
That should have been cured years ago
I am instant tv dinners and fast food
I am eyes bigger then the plate
Complaining while families
Are fighting for food and shelter
Down the street
I am America
I am wallstreet
All walks of life who
Wont unify
Cause of germs
We don't want to rub off on each other
Yet we don't want to be ourselves
I am multiple personality disorder
Schizophrenia and anorexia nervosa
Racism and homophobia
I am resurrected into some
Bride of Chuckie media monster
Love child of lindsey lohan and lady gaga
I am originality
Duplicate prints available at your local walmart
Clean up on aisle four
Total mental breakdown
Send us all to betty ford
Put draino in our coffee to slow us down
We haven't slept in 2 weeks
Since we found twitter
I am a survivor
Running up this hill called life
Unmoved by anything that would
Try and defeat me
I am
Pieces of a whole lot of nothing
Trying to hold it all together
Without snapping .......

Still I fight

Your a bastard
Son goes in for a hug
Boot into the stomach
He looks up
Tears in 2 year old eyes
Speaking with out words
I wish I could tell her to stop having kids
Yet she has another on the way
She despises him cause
He looks like his deadbeat dad
He is paying the missing  child support check
With bruises and a broken spirit
He will never heal from
Now he feels unwanted
He doesn't sleep at night
Not cause of the monsters under the bed
But the monster inside of his head
Somewhere a six year old boy
Is being tucked into his final resting place
His murderer is his mom
Yet we won't know that for three days
He spent his last week sick
Sore throat
He spent his last days
Not knowing he was on his way
To heaven
He had his life ahead of him
His mom took it away
She cries she just wants to die
I just wish he could of lived
He had the same birthday as me
Cue back in on knocked up mom
Sitting at the bottom of the stairs
Gash in her head
He said he wouldn't
Now she's in labor
3 months early
She and the baby
Won't make it through the night
Let alone make it out of ICU
Two doors down a baby
Fights for her life
Her daycare worker shoved
Soiled  baby wipes down her throat
He sits in jail
While mother fights to keep her eyes open
She doesn't want to miss anything
Her fingers clenched to the call button
Four blocks away
A baby is being rushed to the hospital
Crack addict mother drugged him
Threw him out the window
Neighbor catch him
Dialed 911 with shaky hands
Kept composed as she asked for help
Kept composed even though she wanted to strangle his mom
Police stand off two doors down
Crack addict bitch didn't make it
Shot 13 times
To many sudden movements
I sit and stare at the sky
Past scars sit there and haunt me
I have flash back and demons
That could fill endless numbers of notebooks
Houses I've  been thrown out of
A heart that never heals
Love misrepresented
Faith shattered by misrepresentation of jesus
I am still afraid of the dark, loud noise and confrontation
I have live behind these walls as a victim for 29 years
Silently
Yet I am alive
Very much and I can't sit here
Watching another child die
In the hands of someone they trust
I was neglected and abandoned
Thrown away and fought for my life
Yet I survived
They did not
So still I fight............

Obsessing over you- A Remy, Mija , Fab collabo

**Remy**

I don’t love you
I love you
I want to tie you up to my bed
And ride you
Deprive you
Make myself comfortable
While I twist on you.
I have been watching you for some time now,
I have been trying to figure out how
I don’t want to love you or to be in love with you
I just want to sin with you
Take you away from your wife
Make you forget your life
Just so you can
Stroke me right…
Hold me tight
Only for one night
Please don’t fight
I just want to sex you
Flex with you
I need you have to have
Snatch you up and grab you
I lust for you
Just for you
Make my dreams come true
For a moment or two
I don’t know how to love
Never really cared for it
I just want you between my thighs
So you can adore it
Mi amor it
I don’t want happily ever after
I want you to be my ass clapper
For this chapter
It doesn’t matter
Make it splatter.
You said you like it wetter
Trust me I am better
I can make u forget her
I just want to kiss
I am your mistress
Never to be dismissed
Please don’t resist
Just let me have you for this moment
Yes…just like this….

 **Mija**
yes... i love your kiss.

but i hate your wife and kids.
but i love to see you happy...
it feels like narcotic bliss...

but while your wife was out at fitness..
your cousin saw your hit this...
and now he is a witness...
but i told him if he ran his lips
then i would leave him kidless..

but even a soul scorn as mine
can't put a hit upon a kid
but i wasn't takin' chances...
so i left his head split..
had him buried in a pit...
leaking a sickly, slow drip....

see how much i love you?
now your wife won't know,
unless you let guilt show...

...what's this i heard about me being just some "hoe"?
i thought...
... i thought...

DO YOU KNOW... HOW HARD I'VE FOUGHT?

you... you said you cared...
and for rejection... i am quite... ill-prepared...

**Mizz Fab**
and i am ill mentally
psycho
deranged
fifth of vodka
and i am traveling
down an abandoned road
mudd caked stillettos
dress dripping in blood
and i am draggin a shovel
what have i done
i loved you
past seduction
past candle lit dinners
fuck all that and fuck you
what am i going to do
i am already in hell
and i am running out of liquor
colapse in the middle of the highway
praying death will come quicker
convulsing and shaking
tears flood out my eye
my stomach is in nots
and i see you standing over me
but you are ghost
invading my concious
and i have to live with these regrets
i have to live
with these nightmares
and you took a piece of my soul
as i took your life
and now i lay in solitude
holding onto sanity
and the voices wont shut up

Destroying Angels

Where were you
When they were destroying angels
Clipping wings off of them
Before they could form sentences
Before they could eat solid food
Where were you when they traded
Elementary school backpacks
For lip smackers and short shorts
Tuck them into bed with stories
Of safety
While you watched lullabies of war on tv
When did we get so obsessed with money
When did we get do obsessed with violence
We would ignore the cries of angels
As their wings got separated from flesh
We are ripping innocence
From them , like baby teeth
Learning to suck up spilled milk
Cause it cost too much to clean it up
A bruise , a broken bone
A trip down the stairs
A walk into the door
She's so clumsy
Hoping to god she don't walk away
18 with a gun in her hand
Cocked to her head
Cause all she wanted to do was
Shut people up
Yet mama is a drunk
Daddy's too busy dodging beer bottles
When he comes home from destroying other angels
She just wishes she could of told them
Before she found smack
Found jesus
Found smack again
Then took 12 steps to find Jesus again
She had told them
That even if angel wings are ripped off
They can still fly
A little
She puts down the gun
She paces back and forth
She's twenty stories up
She cries into the night
She jumps